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Tuesday, April 21, 2015

I Was Dealt a Lesson of My Own

About a week ago I started reading the two books written by Theresa Caputo, you know, the Long Island Medium.  I don't know what it is about her but I just really enjoy her energy and vibe.  Her books did not disappoint.  They were full of positive messages and stories from her life and I learned a few things in addition to having my own experiences validated.  One of the points she made that really stuck with me was when she talked about how our deceased relatives are always around us waiting to help or deliver lessons, messages, and support when we need it most.  It was one of those moments where I realized that although I've said this hundreds of times to people I read for I never actually said it to myself.  What?!  I know!

It has always been a no brainer to tell my clients that their relatives who have passed are always with them.  The fact that they even question it always seemed silly to me.  YET I never fully processed that thought to apply to my own life.  I feel slightly dumb about that, but what can I do?  I desperately needed someone to directly say it to me and that's what that book did.  So last night, after much reflection and contemplation, I decided to sit down and meditate and actually acknowledge my deceased family members around me.  I especially felt like a fool for always missing my grandpa so much and never reaching out to him.  I just didn't want to bother him while he was having such a nice time in the after life.  But last night I decided to be a little "Selfish" and reach out to him and the others.

I waited for my son to go to bed, sat at my meditation altar, lit my candles, and said a quick prayer.  I listened to beautiful music and opened myself up as much as I could.  I then welcomed my relatives to come forward so that we could have a reunion of sorts.  I was amazed at how quickly it happened.  All of a sudden I see my great grandmothers and great grandfathers.  But front and center were both of my grandpas smiling brightly at me.  What has really stuck with me was the feeling they radiated that consumed me completely.   I felt so much love and emotion that it's indescribable.  I honestly don't know what to say about it other than that it was like coming home.  It moved me to tears and I cried openly as I saw my grandpas standing there so happy to see me.  It was the most incredible moment of my life.

I instantly apologized for being so foolish before and denying there existence.  I promised to visit with them regularly and to memorialize them in my home to keep their spirits alive.  After saying all this I simply sat there for a moment as they sent me as much love and happiness as they could.  That very moment restored my faith more than anything else.  I was empowered to know that even if someone close to me dies I will always have the ability to see them again.  They never truly leave.

I've missed one of my grandpas so much that it often hurts deep down in my heart.  To have the chance to reunite with him and to know that he's always around smiling and rooting for me lifts me up so much.  I am able to now ask for his guidance or simply close my eyes and see his face.  I have a new outlook on life now all thanks to another medium saying the very thing I needed to hear.

Thank you for reading my blog.

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