Friday, April 15, 2016

What Being an Empath Is Like...

I typically talk about what it's like communicating with spirits, but today I wanted to talk about what it's like to be an Empath.  An Empath is someone who is not only sensitive to other people's energy, but they can also feel other people's emotions and sometimes their physical pain.  I have been an empath all of my life.  It has always been a struggle for me because I found it difficult to find the necessary balance to sanely survive such a thing.  Over the years, thankfully, I have learned to properly cope with this part of my life.  So how does it work for me?  Well, I will tell you :-)

My empathic abilities come in a few different ways:

1. I can feel the emotions and energies of the living.  Large crowds, parties, arguments, funerals, these are just a few things I will try to avoid at all costs.  Large crowds and parties are overwhelming because that's a lot of emotions to be feeling at one time.  It causes me a tremendous amount of anxiety.  I become nervous, anxious, sad, happy, confused, hyper, and more.  It's an emotional roller coaster.  I don't like being around angry people or people that are in a heated debate because then I become stressed and angry myself.  It also annoys me to no end because those are emotions I would rather not feel when they aren't my own.  Funerals are the WORST.  All that sadness and melancholia and doom and gloom.  It's unbearable.  Now, think about feeling your own feelings and then having to constantly deflect everyone else's emotions.  And THEN, add the extra part of seeing and hearing all the spirits around each person.  No wonder I come off as crazy and weird....

2. I can feel the emotions and pain of the dead.  I can hear, see, and feel spirits.  But I can also absorb and experience their emotions.  I can also feel how they died.  When I am communicating with the dead I can immediately tell if they are happy, sad, confused, or angry.  Once I am able to identify the spirit in some way and also take note of their current emotional state, I then begin to feel how they died.  I've seen in a few rare cases the results of their passing.  Especially when it entailed a gunshot wound.  Most people that have passed on don't exhibit outward signs of their passing, though.  So leave it up to me to feel how they died.  Unpleasant, right?  Oh it is.  I have felt stabbing pains throughout my body.  Head pains mean tumor or some kind of trauma.  Chest pain means heart attack.  Other spots, and the severity of the pain, can mean gun shot or cancer.  I've even had the breath taken out of me, which meant lung cancer.  Oddly enough, I don't mind feeling those sorts of things.  I figure it's just one way of helping the spirits I encounter to find closure.  

3.  I can feel the emotions and physical pain of all types of animals.  This is the hardest thing for me to experience.  When I see a dog in a car.  When I pass an animal on the side walk.  Or when I visit the zoo.  These are all instances that I will be faced with feeling the emotions of the animals.  Zoos and animal shelters are by far the worst, but it can be equally heart wrenching to just pass a dog on the street.  During each encounter I feel their full range of emotions.  They will look me right in the eyes and I can also receive an overall message that they are trying to convey.  Then I will begin to feel any pain or discomfort they are in.  The emotions of zoo animals are so heartbreaking that I avoid zoos at all costs.  I simply am not strong enough for that.  What do these animals feel?  They feel everything.  Sadness, heartbreak, despair.  They feel happiness, joy, and overwhelming amounts of love.  Zoo animals mostly feel anxiety, pure despair, and listlessness.  And anger.  One of the hardest things is being forced to walk away from an animal knowing that their human won't do anything to help them.  I have said something on numerous occasions, some even to paying clients, where I explain what the dog is saying and feeling.  I can tell you that almost every single person treated me like a liar and they never did anything to help their animal out or to ease their pain.  It is infuriating.  Another difficult thing is knowing when my own animals are in pain.  How do you explain to the Vet that your cat is in pain and when they ask you how you know you have no real answer other than "I can feel it."  It's not an easy thing to explain!

As I'm sure you can understand, my empathic abilities aren't something I openly admit to people in every day life.  It's not an easily understood thing.  I mean, how would you feel if I put my hand on your arm and said "I can feel that you're depressed and nauseous and really tired."  Or tell you that your dog told me he is having a lot of pain because you won't stop feeding him lunch meat and he feels very frustrated with you.  No one wants to truly hear those things, and if I do voice those things, most people will assume I'm on the fast track to crazy town.  

Aside from the fact that I have to normally hide that side of myself and the general discomfort and anxiety I can feel at any given time, I really don't mind being an empath all that much.  It's been a part of who I am for so long that I'm mostly used to it.  I know what places to avoid and how to protect myself from becoming too overwhelmed.  And I have learned to not really care when people think I'm a tad odd.  It's all part of owning up to all the bizarre and unexplained things that exist within my universe.  And my universe definitely likes to keep things interesting.  Like all the time...

Thank you for reading my blog.

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