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Monday, December 19, 2016

The Art of Evolving



Sometimes I feel like all I've been doing is "evolving" lately.  I go from one idea to the next, one project to the next, heck, one action to the next.  And at first I am so enthusiastic about what I'm doing.  But then 30 days later I am thinking "This isn't quite it."  Meaning, I'm still searching for the right "thing" that just causes my soul to see fireworks and hear nuns singing Hallelujah.  I feel like I'm always on the verge of it.  I love to write, so I wrote a book.  I love helping people SO much, and I finally did myself a favor and established boundaries on how I will help people (read about my new services at www.lotuslunation.com).  I've entertained the idea of writing more seriously, as in books and possibly freelance work.  And I've been contemplating starting a podcast and youtube channel a lot lately.

I just have so much to say.

It's a blessing and a curse to be so passionate about so many things.  I love animals, I love working in animal rescue, I am obsessed with crystals and gemstones, I could talk all day about personal growth and spirituality, and I want the opportunity to talk more openly about my experiences with the dead.

So, yeah, I'm sort of evolving lately.  I'm trying to find my place in this world.  I recently did this numerology thing online and it was mind blowing how accurate and enlightening it was.  It said that based on my number combination, or whatever, my personality is very passionate.  It said I'm a person who loves to travel and wander and who has difficulties being tied down to just one thing.  I thought to myself "They nailed it!"  But I don't think my inability to be tied down to one job/niche/thing is a bad thing.  I think it shows how easily I adapt, change, and evolve.

Isn't it true that as we age we are always changing?  I am not the same person I was at 25.  And I'm glad for that.  I don't even recognize that crazy girl!  So my ability to fluidly transition to the next phase in my life, and be conscious of what changes need to happen to remain true to myself, is a damn good thing.  Seriously.

I have always had the fear of people thinking I'm flaky, all over the place, and just unsure of life.  I want to tell anyone that may think that about me that it's actually the complete opposite.  I'm actually really sure of who I am.  And because I know myself so well, and I respect and love myself so much that I am willing to take the risk of looking like a flighty girl in order to honor what my purpose is and how I need to fulfill it.  Our journeys are all different, and it's important to be supportive of others on their own unique path.  It's exhausting to evolve continuously, but it's necessary.

I don't think we can ever truly master the Art of Evolving, but we can try really hard to embrace it and listen to our little inner voice that is saying "This new thing is what will make me happy.  What I'm doing currently is no longer working for me." And then we suck it up and listen and do the damn thing!

The first of the year is going to be an exciting time for me.  I'm going to write more, help people through life coaching, continue my animal rescue work, and start my podcast (after a year of going back and forth).  I'm excited and scared, but I'm willing to be fearless when it comes to exploring new things and having fun with life.

Evolve I will, because the alternative is yucky.  I refuse to be locked inside of a box and never grow and explore all that life has to offer.  And I hope you do the same.


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